Does anyone remember the old song “It’s me, Oh Lord standing in the need of prayer”? I remember some old cassette tapes that I used to listen to had this song on it… “It’s me, it’s me, it’s me oh Lord, standing in the need of prayer. Not my brother, not my sister but it’s me oh Lord standing in the need of prayer.” I guess that is where I am today.
Things just aren’t going my way recently. I suppose I am on the down side to the cycles of Christian growth. It is in these times that God works in us to make and mold us into the people he wants us to be, but *whining* why does it have to be so hard!?
Financially things are just out of control and there is a part of me that worries I will run out of money before this fast is over. I have left that in God’s hands, if in fact we run out of funds to buy produce then I have to just trust that is the way God wants it to be. So my disclaimer to my readers, I am sorry if I am unable to continue the juice fast until the whole 40 days. If that happens, do know I am fully content with the outcome thus far, and I will eat vegan/raw until the 40 days are up. I have buckets of beans and rice at home and I refuse to worry myself sick if I am unable to buy enough produce to finish. I have enough stress right now.
Then my job. This has been the subject of a few blogs recently, I don’t know what that means but I don’t feel it can be good. I am over the top stressed. I work in a very small doctors office, with two other coworkers. We have all we need, a medical assistant, front desk and biller, but our front desk gave two weeks notice and surprise surprise the doctor has done nothing since then. Well, to be fair it’s not nothing, but there has been zero progress on getting a replacement person. His worries are only the things that really affect him, rather than listening to the fears and worries of his two remaining employees. I actually took time to sit down and talk to him over a week ago and still nothing has changed. At this point I am covering two jobs, plus doing a whole new set of duties that could really mess someone up if I forget a step or something. There has been no choice on a person to replace our front desk, and all the people that he is talking to need to give two weeks notice wherever they are. So unless he makes a choice this week we are looking at probably three weeks of me doing this.
I feel the weight of my little world right now. So it’s me in need of some prayer, if you find yourself talking to The Big Guy (aka God) please mention my needs and if nothing else pray for the peace that passes ALL understanding to fall into my heart and life.
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Oh bless you, dear Corri! I feel your heavy heart! You can count on me to pray for you. I sincerely mean this. I have been praying for you anyway! You’ve mentioned many things that tug at my heart. One of the blessings of being my age is the ability to look back and see how God has had me in his care throughout my life, and there have been many times that I’ve felt as low as you do now. He is faithful…just hold onto that, and yes, I will pray specifically for what you’ve shared! A big hug…Debra
Thank you so much Debra. You don’t know how much your comments AND prayers mean! I do know one day I can look back and understand things more, it is rough to get to that point sometimes. I do trust God and know his perfect plan for me, but… some times it’s harder than others. Thanks for your encouragement and your prayers especially. I do truly need them right now. Feeling your hug, Corri
I am so sorry to hear you are going through a rough patch right now. Will be thinking of you xx
Thanks for the love!!
So glad to see a reply from you – was getting worried!
My work is nuts! We are so short handed I can’t complete the most simple task without the phone ringing or someone coming in. I am trying to catch up on all the blogs I’ve missed. Most things in my life are on hold until I find some extra time. I’m trying not to be so absent! xo