Does anyone remember the old song “It’s me, Oh Lord standing in the need of prayer”? I remember some old cassette tapes that I used to listen to had this song on it… “It’s me, it’s me, it’s me oh Lord, standing in the need of prayer. Not my brother, not my sister but it’s me oh Lord standing in the need of prayer.” I guess that is where I am today.
Things just aren’t going my way recently. I suppose I am on the down side to the cycles of Christian growth. It is in these times that God works in us to make and mold us into the people he wants us to be, but *whining* why does it have to be so hard!?
Financially things are just out of control and there is a part of me that worries I will run out of money before this fast is over. I have left that in God’s hands, if in fact we run out of funds to buy produce then I have to just trust that is the way God wants it to be. So my disclaimer to my readers, I am sorry if I am unable to continue the juice fast until the whole 40 days. If that happens, do know I am fully content with the outcome thus far, and I will eat vegan/raw until the 40 days are up. I have buckets of beans and rice at home and I refuse to worry myself sick if I am unable to buy enough produce to finish. I have enough stress right now.
Then my job. This has been the subject of a few blogs recently, I don’t know what that means but I don’t feel it can be good. I am over the top stressed. I work in a very small doctors office, with two other coworkers. We have all we need, a medical assistant, front desk and biller, but our front desk gave two weeks notice and surprise surprise the doctor has done nothing since then. Well, to be fair it’s not nothing, but there has been zero progress on getting a replacement person. His worries are only the things that really affect him, rather than listening to the fears and worries of his two remaining employees. I actually took time to sit down and talk to him over a week ago and still nothing has changed. At this point I am covering two jobs, plus doing a whole new set of duties that could really mess someone up if I forget a step or something. There has been no choice on a person to replace our front desk, and all the people that he is talking to need to give two weeks notice wherever they are. So unless he makes a choice this week we are looking at probably three weeks of me doing this.
I feel the weight of my little world right now. So it’s me in need of some prayer, if you find yourself talking to The Big Guy (aka God) please mention my needs and if nothing else pray for the peace that passes ALL understanding to fall into my heart and life.