Posts Tagged ‘Christian’

Does anyone remember the old song “It’s me, Oh Lord standing in the need of prayer”?  I remember some old cassette tapes that I used to listen to had this song on it… “It’s me, it’s me, it’s me oh Lord, standing in the need of prayer.  Not my brother, not my sister but it’s me oh Lord standing in the need of prayer.”  I guess that is where I am today.

Things just aren’t going my way recently.  I suppose I am on the down side to the cycles of Christian growth.  It is in these times that God works in us to make and mold us into the people he wants us to be, but *whining* why does it have to be so hard!?

Financially things are just out of control and there is a part of me that worries I will run out of money before this fast is over.  I have left that in God’s hands, if in fact we run out of funds to buy produce then I have to just trust that is the way God wants it to be.  So my disclaimer to my readers, I am sorry if I am unable to continue the juice fast until the whole 40 days.  If that happens, do know I am fully content with the outcome thus far, and I will eat vegan/raw until the 40 days are up.  I have buckets of beans and rice at home and I refuse to worry myself sick if I am unable to buy enough produce to finish.  I have enough stress right now.

Then my job.  This has been the subject of a few blogs recently, I don’t know what that means but I don’t feel it can be good.  I am over the top stressed.  I work in a very small doctors office, with two other coworkers.  We have all we need, a medical assistant, front desk and biller, but our front desk gave two weeks notice and surprise surprise the doctor has done nothing since then.  Well, to be fair it’s not nothing, but there has been zero progress on getting a replacement person.  His worries are only the things that really affect him, rather than listening to the fears and worries of his two remaining employees.  I actually took time to sit down and talk to him over a week ago and still nothing has changed.  At this point I am covering two jobs, plus doing a whole new set of duties that could really mess someone up if I forget a step or something.  There has been no choice on a person to replace our front desk, and all the people that he is talking to need to give two weeks notice wherever they are.  So unless he makes a choice this week we are looking at probably three weeks of me doing this.

I feel the weight of my little world right now.  So it’s me in need of some prayer, if you find yourself talking to The Big Guy (aka God) please mention my needs and if nothing else pray for the peace that passes ALL understanding to fall into my heart and life.


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Hebalism & God

When my journey into natural medicine started I was like anyone else who was STARVING for information.  I read book after book, I joined herbal groups, found internet paid groups to be part of, I even found a local herbalist to take me on herbal walks.  I was constantly looking down at all the plants trying to identify them and find their uses.  It was an amazing time in my life, so new and fresh.  People would start to ask me, what herb would you use for this or that and it would get me into my books or on to the web to ask my new herbal friends.  I was in heaven.

When you are new at things you take the advice of the more advanced people who are giving you knowledge.  You don’t question them, just like a college student wouldn’t question their professor, because OBVIOUSLY these people have much more knowledge than you do.  I, now do not believe that previous statement.  Every human is faulty, every human can be lead to an incorrect path.  In fact most Christian’s who go away to a secular college lose their faith, why?  Because they are taught by those “all knowing” professors that they “evolved” from a monkey.  And usually when people put that much money into something, you can’t doubt it, or why did you pay for it in the first place?  This same concept happens in the herbal world, and it happened to me.

I joined a online group, you paid so much a month to be able to see the forums and chat with the owners and have special lessons and you had access to a ton of herbalists.  I was doing a program also with a local herbalist and was paying her monthly.  In no time I was picking up every book that she suggested, oh how I loved Amazon for that!  I remember very clearly when an herbalist (both in books and the online group) said to leave a gift for Mother Earth when you take an herb.  So ingrained in this new world it didn’t even occur to me how wrong this really is.  Then I was given a book about Shamanism, and once I started to read it, again I felt like this was how the herbal world worked.  Ugh! Why didn’t I question these things!?  It was starting to get carried away, I felt that I could call the “spirits” of the Earth just in the same way the Shamans did, and how interesting this book was.  Now I realize they were calling on the spirits of Satan, not “the earth.”   Slowly though God started pulling me out of it.  Verses like Romans 1:25 (Who changed the truth of God into a lie, and worshiped and served the creature more than the Creator, who is blessed for ever. Amen.) and Genesis 1:29 (And God said, Behold, I have given you every plant bearing seed, which is upon the face of all the earth, and every tree, which has seed in its fruit; to you it shall be for food.) became very important in my walk.  I was being woken up to the deception that I was under, and it became so much more clear that God created it all and I don’t have to leave God a gift for taking an herb he made for us, in fact God is the one that truly gave US the gift.  Now when I read a book that says that ginkgo is a prehistoric plant, I rejoice that it was around when the dinosaurs were but not MILLIONS of years ago, but pre-flood.  I am not afraid to cross out a part in a book about evolution and write over it “GOD.”

So when I tell people about an herb that can heal them, comfrey is one of my favorites, or skullcap to help them sleep, I can rejoice in God’s creation that he gave to us.  He thought of everything, even the seeds of Apples contain a cyanide that will kill the protein around cancer cells.  He knew what we would face and before we spit in his face by listening to Satan’s lies, he still thought of  us and the suffering we would go through and provided a way to make it easier.  That is amazing love!  So if you pick up white willow bark instead of aspirin (btw aspirin was originally made from white willow bark) praise your Creator for making herbs to help and heal us, enjoy that cup of tea and bask in his ultimate forgiveness.

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Matthew 10:22 packs a punch, “And ye shall be hated of all men for my name’s sake,”  but then a bit of peace comes from Jesus: “but he that endureth to the end shall be saved. ”  Who wants to be hated just because they believe in Jesus?  But this does seem to be the case most of the time doesn’t it?  Have you ever had someone use your belief in Christ against you?  As if this is a bad thing?  Christ preached love, to love those who hate you, to turn your cheek when someone hits you, why would he be hated so much?  I suspect because he was the son of the living God, because everything he spoke was truth and evil hates truth.

This seems to be the case in my life right now.  I am being called out because I am a Christian by family.  My husband is being called out for being a Christian by friends.  Things like “where is your Christian forgiveness?” and “Christians molested and raped kids.”  These things are hard to hear, we are being treated like horrible people for loving God and believing in Christ’s truth.  I never thought it would “happen to me” but here it is, plain as day and as hurtful as a knife cut.  How does one get through these times in life?  The word of God.

I have been feeling a lot of pull to read some books from people who have amazing strength and faith.  A while back I read Corrie Ten Boom‘s The Hiding Place, it is an amazing book about God’s faithfulness in the most horrible place on earth, a Nazi concentration camp.  God provided medicine that would not run out, he protected her bible though MANY searches by Nazi guards, how she was released from the concentration camp after a clerical error, which she knew was God’s providence just a week before all the woman of her age were killed .  She also watched her sister die and learned of her elderly father’s death in concentration camps, all for helping God’s people to hide from the horrible things happening to them.  Corrie Ten Boom’s faith is AMAZING!  I wish I could have half that faith.  I have started reading Tramp For The Lord also by Corrie Ten Boom.  She is confronted after a talk she gave by a guard that she remembered from the concentration camp, this guard came up to her and told her that he was a guard at the camp Corrie and her sister were held at, also the camp where her sister lost her earthly life.  When the guard told her he had become a Christian since then and asked her to forgive him, she couldn’t.  She stood there frozen and had to pray for God to release her heart from being so angry.  Finally with that prayer she was able to forgive him.  Can you imagine it!?  Forgiving something so horrible, but that is what we are called to do.  I guess that is why Jesus told us:  Bless them that curse you, and pray for them who despitefully use you. Luke 6:28

So when we are hated we should rejoice, we are making the enemy squirm.  Jesus told us this would happen.  Why would we not be persecuted if our savior was?  So rejoice family in Christ!  Even when you want to cry.

If the world hate you, ye know that it hated me before it hated you.  If ye were of the world, the world would love his own: but because ye are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hateth you.  Remember the word that I said unto you, The servant is not greater than his lord. If they have persecuted me, they will also persecute you; if they have kept my saying, they will keep yours also.  John 15:18-20

God is faithful until the end, and will over see justice, we just have to wait a bit for it.  When I’ve been weak I just pray out loud and command in the name of Jesus for any evil to leave.  There is a power in speaking the words of God remember: For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high places. Ephesians 6:12 Things that “feel” like they are coming from this world aren’t.  We aren’t fighting a physical battle but a spiritual one.  And God prevails in the end and we will see our Savior coming in the clouds, once and for all.  Amen!  So let the hate come, let the persecution come, will it be easy? no.  But with God all things are possible, and he promised if we endure until the end, we will be saved.

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